Like God... Why?

“That’s a scary prayer to pray friend” she said after I made a comment, “Oh how I want Him to break me open and make my heart fully His.” It is a scary prayer to pray but if you know Jesus, you know that His hands are the safest place for your heart to be. But how safe is that? As Christians our call is to submit to the Lord, say “Lord have your way” If you pray this prayer often you start to realize that it IS a scary prayer to pray. Much easier is the path of the sloth.  Zone out on tv shows that diminish your morals without you even knowing, partake in degrading conversations that lack truth but puff you up. Ignore death, ignore that this world is not your home all together, make it home, get comfortable, enjoy your own version of heaven that blinds your eyes to the real paradise of eternity. Find joy in all things earthly, make them your god. Worship every night, every morning when you open your computer, when you indulge in that last extra sip that sets you into that relaxation that you “just need”. Comfort, get comfortable wherever your at, find a routine and settle, settle for this life, this food, this false peace. I can tell you really, that this actually the safest place to be. Wage no war against Satan and he will more than likely leave you alone because your done, you are concord. You show no threat to his plan. Go ahead and pray, pray for all the things you want, what you need, ask God to make your plan His and you will stay safe. Never pray for God’s will to be done, never pray for Him to make you more like Him. This is the path of most resistance because He will follow through. Think about that request, “God make me more like you.” Who is God, this being that you ask to be made like? He is responsible for all life, all souls, every baby, every son and daughter. He is the father of every drug addict, prostitute, child soldier, sick infant and one perfect man who was tortured and hung on a tree with nails. He is the Great Sufferer. “God make me more like you” what do we expect to get with that prayer? I don’t know what I expected but I prayed and I find lately that I am disappointed with my results of this prayer. I am awash in His ocean of teaching, I cannot see over the crest of the next wave that I see coming to pummel me and I am afraid. All I can see is the present and immediate future with its presence of death, the promise of pain in pregnancy and birth and the possibility  of two more dead, and if they live, sleepless nights, more self sacrifice amidst sorrow and grief I am already baring. “God just wants me to wriggle and writhe until I scream and scream” I said the other night…….. and it made me think of Jesus at the cross making all things new. He is making me new. I am fully in His hands, He is making me more like Him and I must trust in His process. I guess what  we expect to receive from that prayer is exactly what we asked for.  We will be refined into pure gold that when weighed will have an eternal weight of glory. We will yield, He will yield us, He will crush us into a position where we are kneeling, ever kneeling before the throne of God above……..If we ask Him to. Is this a desirable position? To me it is the most important thing in the life of my eternal soul, in the lives of all those I love. It is the highest honor to be crushed, it is a great crown to suffer and mourn because it makes you more like the God of the universe. Praise Him, praise His Holy name Jesus, He is making all things new.